Thursday, March 25, 2010
Happy Birthday to Mummy
It is my birthday today. I love my birthday. I love that I have lived another year of this amazing life and although, of course, I am not a fan of these creeping in wrinkles and all the other not-so-fun stuff that comes with age, I feel so blessed to have lived this long. I know that every line on my face tells part of my story and each is a thread in the tapestry of my life. Something terrible could have happened to me and the weaving could have stopped long ago, when I was young, wrinkle free and looked fabulous in a bikini. But I am lucky to be alive and today I am 39 and I still wear a bikini, although I probably shouldn't!
As you may have noticed, I don't have that fibbing-about-your-age button. I am not sure why I shout from the hill tops how old I am, but I think it is because I feel proud of who I am still becoming - I hope that I am becoming a better mother, a better photographer, a better wife, a better person. And most of all, I feel thankful that I have lived for another year! I have lines on my face that scream to you that I am middle aged (ok - this is where I may start to cringe a bit - just that word has so much weight and baggage to it!), yet that still means I have half my life laying before me. That is wonderful. So no, I don't wish I were younger. I don't wish I had less wrinkles or extra bits that were not there before. I just wish to feel as happy in the future as I do today.
Oslo was so sweet. He emptied all his lego and play mobil and building blocks on the floor yesterday and filled the empty wooden wine crates with all the baking goods, marshmallows, chocolate and junk food he could find in the cupboards. He said he wanted to make me a birthday cake and what shape did I want. Love shaped, I told him. He asked if that meant a heart (he knows I LOVE hearts). I told him it was whatever shape he thought love was.
So we make the most decadent chocolate brownies (gluten free of course!) and put marshmallows and chocolate chips in them for good measure. He chose the heart shaped muffin tray and the bigger round ones. He said mine was the big round one and he, Indigo, Daddy and Tin Tin would share the small hearts. Too cute.
So they blew out my candle for me and I made a wish to always feel the way I do today - happy for who I am and thankful - oh so thankful - for all I have. Everything.
Happy birthday to me.